Another new week rolls in. I know we had a 5-day “break”, but it really doesn’t feel like it. I’ve had a bit of a mentally challenging couple of days and honesty today I can only say I feel angry and a lot of rage and this isn’t me, I don’t feel like me and I just feel out of sorts. I’ve booked in at Lighthouse Arabia this week, fear not. I do need a check in. I don’t even know where to begin, but I think it’s a lot of things mounting up. I had a lot of stress with work over the holidays and it just reinforced to me how I’m always on call even 9 years on and how as a result I never feel at ease or at peace in my own skin. I JUST WANT TO FEEL AT PEACE IN MY OWN SKIN AGAIN! I don’t know if any of you who own businesses or work for yourself feel this way, but it is something that I have struggled with for most the time I owned TishTash and the reality I am in. Is this it forever? So, a holiday week full of drama and crazy clients was what I had as everyone else chilled and enjoyed life. GRRR.
I’m also now in crazy rage about the whole baby thing too – why all those people who don’t even look after their kids and not us? Why is IVF so expensive? How can I rob a bank? Would someone like to give me IVF in exchange for covering my journey – mildly joking 😉
Also, can I just say why do random strangers who you don’t know feel they can email you about your new website and give “feedback”. My mother always told me if you didn’t have anything nice to say, then say nothing at all – and amen to that!
Yesterday my internet went off again most the day to add to my life joy. Isn’t it frustrating how you can do so little with no internet now – I couldn’t watch TV or work. Very frustrating. Anyway, finally 24 hours later they found the fault their end. It is the 2nd time this week. You can see why I am full of rage, right?
Anyway, I’m just angry and I’m telling everyone to avoid me today. I do worry Sunday’s set the tone for the week, so I hope this is not the tone for the week to come.
Today a busy week begins, although I am relieved all the craziness of delivering advent calendars is done now as that was a mission. I think Alden my driver is too! We’re always busy, we create stuff if we’re not. A few of my team go on leave too end of this week, so the holiday cover juggle begins. Most are on local leave, but just taking the time off to enjoy family time and more sleep after a bonkers year.
Right I’ll grumble on alone now and I hope to wake up on the better side of the bed tomorrow!
Lots of love and happy new week xxxx